Monday, October 4, 2010

and the countdown begins

Last year this day, my mom had just flown into town and we were preparing for Kyndal to arrive within the next few days..
Last year I was pregnant for my birthday, Camden's birthday and those events have passed. The next event was Oct 8.. Kyndal, our daughter was stillborn.. click here to read the full story..
Friday marks the day. We are having a graveside balloon release with close friends.
I was at walmart today, and chose a new flower arrangement for her grave. It has bright fall colors, sunflowers and gerber daisies..
It makes me want to get my Halloween and fall decorations out..
Tonight is support group. I've missed (or forgotten) for 3 months.
I am sure it will be a tough week for me, so if Im not acting normal.. it's cause I'm not , and have a good excuse...:)
the word "year" is a hard word to say.
Not that my feelings will change overnight.. from 11 months to 12..
but it is something about that word..

7 comments:

Paradise Found said...

Lots of love <3

Anonymous said...

Thinking of you and your family, Cori.....

debra said...

love you... you are constantly on my thoughts as her angel day is approaching.. let me know if there is anything I can do for you - that "year" word is very hard - time passing is hard to deal with, hard to imagine how long its been - but its just that much closer to holding her again. I know she'll be with you this week, carrying you through.

Unknown said...

{{{Hug}}}
I'll be thinking and praying for you this week Cori.

Melanie and Jarom said...

I remembered that Kyndal's birthday was approaching when I saw you today. I'll be thinking of you!

Glahn Family said...

Always thinking of you and your sweet family.. Your a great person that I have come to love and admire. It's ok to grieve and be sad. There is no doubt she is with you and her daddy and brothers. She will be your strength. Spend the day being her mommy.. Lots of love and prayers

Borhan Mohamed Dali said...

I do not know you. But I can feel your happiness to have a happy family. God bless you.